Will I forget?

I’ve never been a blogger.  I’ve tried.  I’ve failed and quit.  It’s never been important to me.  But in the months since we’ve lost Austin, I’ve realized that I need to record things, thoughts that occur to me, memories that I have, before I forget them.  I don’t journal as well as I should. Frankly, it’s because writing can be so exhausting and my hands don’t keep up with my thoughts, especially right now.  So, this is for me. Maybe one day I’ll share it; I don’t know. But I’ve come to realize that I need to express my thoughts for my own mental health and record them for posterity.  Because I can’t forget.